I realized I haven't been writing as much as I used to, and a lot of that is because of how busy I have been. I am loving my 6th graders this year, and I haven't shared this as much, so this may get a little personal, but last year was hard on me. I ended up losing my job around April when my principal let me know that I would be laid off due to my position getting cut. I remember breaking down in my classroom during the phone call and continuing to cry in the car while taking to my parents about it being official. Even thinking about it now brings tears to my eyes because I just finished my 1st year, and it was hard for me to regain my passion and enthusiasm.
After I thought this through, I started applying for positions everywhere in Illinois, and I did not hear back for a while leaving me feeling worried and fearful about my future as a teacher. I remember crying one day because I wanted to teach so badly and find a new position. About a week before school ended last year, I had an interview and got a phone call saying that they were impressed and wanted to hire me. The funny thing was that, the day before my previous school got out, I was sobbing to my colleagues because I still did not have a position and was terrified about not teaching. I accepted the offer a few hours after, and I was smiling from ear to ear the next day. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, and at the time, I was not believing in that because I felt like my world around me was crashing down. I remember feeling lost and upset because I tried to be this positive force, and I felt like I was so far away from that. Flashforward to this year, and I now see that things began to fall into place. I am so much happier this year than last year, and that could be because of experience but also because I have so much more support. My district is truly amazing. Of course, I have tough days too, but I feel appreciated and valued as an educator. The reason I shared this is because we all go through tough times, and, for a while, I was distant on Twitter because I was trying to figure this all out. I know that I am meant to teach because I truly felt hurt last year, and it was hard for me to imagine myself not teaching for a year. I know that my journey has just begun last year, but I am blessed to be able to hopefully impact new teachers and share my story.
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